of clouds and silver linings

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If you follow us on Facebook, you already know this, but our grandpa (the one who lives in BV, our favorite place on earth) found out last week about a tumor in his esophagus. It’s not good, y’all, really not good. He’s doing hospice at home and is in pretty rough shape.

The silver lining of this bad news is that Jordan (and my sweet niece Evie) got to fly home to spend some time with our grandpa (and our other sister is headed down from Idaho as well!). I hate the reason for their visits, but having a chance to hang out with my sister has felt like unexpected grace to my heart.

It feels so funny to be so happy and so sad at the same time. Does that ever happen to you?


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  1. Recently, my cousin passed away and the entire family headed to Arizona to be together for the service. It was beautiful to all be together – but obviously, really hard. I’m glad that your family is getting the same opportunity, because I know how much that means.

  2. I just lost my mom on August 28, 2012 to cancer. We found out on July 3rd that she had it. The two months flew by quick, but were also the two longest months of my life. It is very difficult to see someone you love die such a painful death, but I am glad you get to spend time with your grandpa and your sister. Being with family helps the hurting heart. Best wishes to you and your family.

    1. Awww, Tami, we did that with Adam’s dad two years ago. It’s TERRIBLE, right? Though, now, we’re so thankful for the time we had with Mark. Ugh. Thanks for commenting.

  3. Think how happy your papa will be to have his girls there with him. It’s been three years since my papa passed away, and I miss him as much as ever. Wishing you a peaceful journey as these last moments come.

  4. I’m so sorry about your Papa. We will keep you guys in our prayers.

    And we really understand the happy/sad feeling. We’ll live with that all our lives. In Feb. of this year my husband was badly wounded in Afghanistan. We lived at Walter Reed for 5 months and he still has a long way to go in recovery. But he is alive and we rejoice everyday. We celebrate every month on the 20th. Tugging at our hearts though will always be the fact that he lived when so many don’t. As he recovered we got close to families who ended up losing their service members because their wounds were just too extreme. He was inches from death and lived. Someone further away from the bomb didn’t. Its a difficult line to ride but one that will be with us forever.

    And also, I hope Jordan’s family is staying safe over there in the middle east! We’re praying for you all.

    1. Thank you so much for this sweet comment. And we will keep YOU guys in our prayers. Goodness- that balance between thankfulness and sadness is a thin line, isn’t it???
      And Jord and her family covet your prayers as well- Oman hasn’t seen much of the craziness this time (well, much ever, actually), but that part of the world is pretty unpredictable (you know it better than I do!), so thanks for your prayers for them.

  5. I just recently started reading your site and I wanted to say how much I love it! I am sorry to hear about your grandpa. That is an incredibly hard time. Hopefully having family together will help some. I’m proud of you for trying to see a positive side because that isn’t always easy to do.

    1. Chelsea- thanks so much for taking the time to leave a comment- we so appreciate the words of encouragement.
      And so glad you found us- thanks for coming by. 🙂

  6. I am grateful you get a chance to say good bye. I lost my brother (at 16 years old) this last spring in a tragic accident. (And it truly was an accident, I hold no hate for the driver. I feel horrible for her.) I wish I would have had one more chance to tell him how much I love him. So enjoy every day every minute. Because you never know when you won’t have that extra minute to express everything you want to.

    1. Oh Kristie, I am so sorry! I hate that for you and your family! I will give my grandpa and extra tight squeeze Tuesday (we’re headed back up to his house in the mountains) with this comment in mind.

  7. I feel for you hon :< You feel happy but then guilty for being happy but then irritated that you can't just be happy and it's all just so confusing!

    I was 20 weeks pregnant when my sister miscarried her first child. It was horrible. We were all devestated for her and then I felt guilty for being pregnant then upset that i couldn't be happy and she felt bad for making me upset and GUH.

    {she's pregnant again right now so it's okay :)}

    but I do understand how you feel!

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